Tuesday, 3 April 2012

Cherry Bakewell Baked Oatmeal Squares

So remember yesterday when I posted about how I made some delicious baked oatmeal over the weekend?  Well I thought I'd share the recipe in case you feel like giving it a go yourself.  I'm not original enough to have come up with this, so full credit goes to Jessica at How Sweet It Is.


Cherry Bakewell Baked Oatmeal Squares

[adapted from How Sweet It Is]

serves 4-6

2 cups old fashioned oats
1/3 cup loosely packed coconut sugar
1 teaspoon baking powder
1/4 teaspoon salt
1/4 teaspoon cinnamon
1 large egg
1 & 1/4 cup non-dairy milk
2 teaspoons almond extract
3 tablespoons non-dairy margarine, melted
1 medium ripe banana, mashed
1/4 cup dried sour cherries
2 tbsp Linwoods Cocoa and Berries ground flaxseed

Preheat oven to 180 degrees C and grease a baking dish.

In a large bowl, mix the oats, sugar, baking powder, salt, cinnamon and flaxseed.

Measure out the milk and whisk in the egg and almond extract. 

Stir the wet ingredients into the dry oat mixture. 

Mix in mashed banana, melted butter and dried cherries.

Pour the mix into a baking dish and bake for 30-35 minutes, or until the edges are golden brown and the top is set. 

Remove and let cool for 5 minutes before serving. 

Top with fruit, bananas, milk or simply enjoy plain.

Monday, 2 April 2012

Weekend Things


This weekend I:

Watched almost an entire series of House.  True story.  I obviously don't have much of a life.

Went food shopping.  Twice!  Clearly once just isn't enough in our household.   

Tried on about a hundred different pairs of trousers, of which exactly zero pairs actually fit.  What a complete waste of time.  Although I'm sure all the dressing and undressing contributed to my exercise quota for the week.  Or, more accurately, was my exercise for the week.  Just a quick note to fashion designers - please stop putting long  side pockets on trousers as it prevents us pear-shaped ladies from being able to wear them.  Thank you.  

Had my very first Cadbury's Creme Egg of the season, and the dairy in it didn't cause me any stomach problems.  Hooray!  I may start stockpiling these before they disappear for the year.  Although I have to admit that I kind of like only having them around Easter as it makes them feel that little bit more special.

Made baked oatmeal for the very first time and it turned out great.  It wasn't my own creation but I'm just glad I was able to follow a recipe and produce something that was edible.  If you love oaty things such as porridge and flapjacks then you will love these.  Maybe I'll post the recipe tomorrow.

Decided that I am just far too impatient to stay in my current job until 27th April, so I have used three days leave and now my last day will be Tuesday 24th April.  Much better.  This does mean however that I will be at home packing boxes and cleaning for three days straight.  Oh well, it’s better than being at work I suppose.

And one thing that I most definitely didn't do this weekend was cleaning.  Nope, not one little bit.  My house is filthy and probably stinks but what can I say?  The epic House marathon and general laziness were totally worth it.  Mad cleaning will now ensue as I have just found out that our letting agent has lined up some viewings this week.

I have to say that handing in notice on both my job and home when I currently don't have anything to replace either of them is a little daunting.  I'm scared!

Friday, 30 March 2012

The Girl Who Shouldn't Set Goals

Man, am I feeling vibrant this week!  This is a nice change considering the bad luck I've been having with my stomach this year.  Luckily things seem to be on the up, and this unseasonably hot [yes, HOT!] weather we have been having just makes me feel so much better.  It has been in the low-mid twenties Celsius and bright sunshine all week.  Let the good times roll.

 
Anyway, I thought I would check in and see where I am with my March goals.  If there is one thing I should know about myself by now it's that I just don't stick to goals.  I don't even try because I'm too laid back to really care. I guess I can strike 'goal-orientated person' off my CV.  Whatever.  

My goals for March were:
  • To move a little more each day.  This won't involve any major changes but I want to go for a nice walk every work day on my lunch break and do one hour long yoga DVD session and one hour of light cardio (e.g. swimming, jogging, stepping, aerobics class etc) per week.  This was a complete and total failure.  I have done a few 2-3 mile runs, exactly 2 yoga workouts and 1 swimming session all month.  On the plus side I have walked halfway home from work [2 miles] every day this week, but that's about it really. 
  • To continue finding my 'happy place' with regards to the type and amount of foods that I like to eat.  Again, no major changes here just a continuation with what I am already doing and experimenting with different types of foods to find out what makes me thrive.  Yep, I actually am working on this one but it is a slow process.  I'll file this under 'I'm working on it' for now.
  • To find out what triggers my IBS.  This is kind of linked to the above goal because I am a firm believer that most IBS symptoms are triggered, or at least exacerbated, by eating certain foods.  I would like to have some kind of 'safe to eat' list in place.  Yep, another goal successfully ticked off!  I am currently thriving on a low gluten and low dairy diet.  However, I have been having major cravings for a big, thick baguette stuffed with butter and cheese.  Sods law dictates that you always want what you can't have.  I don't even really like cheese sandwiches!
  • To find a job in London!  Ideally, I would love to have an offer in place by the end of March but realistically just some interest in my CV and a few interviews would be progress.  I did start applying for jobs but it was just too soon to generate any interest so I have put it hold and will resume my search shortly.
Okay, so I guess I didn't do quite as badly as I had anticipated but I'm still not going to set any more goals.  At least for now. 

In other news, my husband has received a contract of employment for his exciting new job in London.  We have both now handed in our notice at work and are due to finish at the end of April.  The goal [damn, I shouldn't use that word should I?] is to relocate on the weekend of 28th/29th April and then have some time off before he starts his new job.

In completely random other news:

I am really enjoying the new cookery show The Little Paris Kitchen.  I just adore the feel of the programme; from the tiny, quaint kitchen, to the shots of pretty Paris streets, right down to the presenter's feminine dress sense, I just love it all.  So girly.  So cute.

I'm also really enjoy the Hairy Bikers Bakeation programme as well.  I really want to learn to bake and seeing the delicious food they get to prepare and sample inspires me to get in the kitchen.  Well it makes me think about getting into the kitchen, but I haven't quite made it over the threshold yet.  All in good time.

A few weeks ago I was loaned the first series of medical drama House and now I am hooked.  I don't know how I missed this when it was originally aired but it is fabulous.  Who would have thought Hugh Laurie with an American accent would work?  Because it so does.  I'm picking up series 2 tonight!

I am really enjoying opening up my diet beyond the sphere of 'healthy' foods, and relaxing my whole outlook around food.  It isn't easy to let go but I am having fun experimenting with foods that I used to love but haven't eaten for years.  This week I have been eating crisps.  Yes, actual crisps.  Not Popchips, or Snack a Jacks, or Velvet Crunch or any of the myriad of  lower calorie alternatives.  Nope, I've been munching on good old Walkers cheese and onion and prawn cocktail crisps.....and I like them.  

I think that's it for now but there will be more posts to come soon.  At least I hope so........because that does sounds an awful lot like a goal to me!

Thursday, 1 March 2012

Howdy! An Update and Some Goals

Blogging is a funny thing.  I find myself really missing it when I don't do it, but when I do blog I don't really feel like I am adding anything unique to the internets.  However, every person should have a voice or an outlet and this is mine, regardless of whether anyone reads it or finds it even remotely interesting! 

If I'm honest, I haven't blogged here in a while because I started to think that if I don't have a regular blogging schedule, an intended audience or even any readers that it was a worthless endeavour.  However, this is simply not true. If the only purpose this blog serves is to give me a place to write down my thoughts and feelings then it is worthwhile, at least to me.

So, moving on. 

As a quick update my IBS has been playing up somewhat.  After a brief period of reprieve on a low fibre diet, I have found myself once again feeling drained and in abdominal discomfort every day.  I have even had to take time off work because of it so I dedided to go back to the Doctors.  At the moment it is being investigated further to make sure the original diagnosis of IBS is correct.  As my symptoms have returned with avengance I am now experiementing with a [mostly] gluten free diet to see if that improves things.

I am still trying to move towards a more intuitive eating approach and make an effort to break out of eating what I think I should, rather than what I might really want.  For some reason this isn't quite as easy as it sounds!

Exercise-wise I have absolutely nothing to report.  Owing to my stomach issues I haven't done a single workout in 2012.  I simply haven't had the energy to do anything but come home from work, make dinner, do a few light chores and lie on the sofa each evening.  Ditto weekends.  It's a shame but I'm not going to get all bent out of shape about it.  Oh, and in case you are wondering,quitting exercise has had  absolutely no impact on my weight. Although I don't weigh myself, all of my clothes still fit the same so I'm happy.

As for the rest of my life, well things may be changing pretty soon.  I don't want to say too much but my husband has been ofered a new job which involves relocating to London.  I am both very excited and very nervous about this but am prepared to ride the wave if it all goes ahead.  That is pretty much all I want to say at the moment because although the job offer has been made, he hasn't yet received a contract of employment or been through any of the pre-employment checks and references (of which there are many!) but I have already made a start on my own London job search just in case it all comes to fruition.  Watch this
space I guess!

That's basically what I've been up to in a nutshell.  I will probably blog a bit more extensively on each of the topics covered here at a later date as I have lots of thoughts on it all.  For now though, I will just set some goals for the month ahead.  Although I must confess that I am not much of a goal-setting person so we'll see how it goes!
  • To move a little more each day.  This won't involve any major changes but I want to go for a nice walk every work day on my lunch break and do one hour long yoga DVD session and one hour of light cardio (e.g. swimming,jogging, stepping, aerobics class etc) per week.
  • To continue finding my 'happy place' with regards to the type and amount of foods that I like to eat.  Again, no major changes here just a continuation with what I am already doing and experimenting with different types of foods to find out what makes me thrive.
  • To find out what triggers my IBS.  This is kind of linked to the above goal because I am a firm beliver that most IBS symptoms are triggered, or at least exaserbated, by eating certain foods.  I would like to have some kind of 'safe to eat' list in place.
  • To find a job in London!  Ideally, I would love to have an offer in place by the end of March but realistically just some interest in my CV and a few interviews would be progress.
So, let's see what March brings.  Bring it on!

Monday, 12 December 2011

Intuitive Eating isn’t all Unicorns and Rainbows

Since I wrote my post at the end of November about not following healthy living blogs any more, I have been trying to figure out a way of eating that is going to work for me over the long term.  While I acknowledge that blogs can be a great source of inspiration for healthy meal ideas, they are also a hotbed for comparison.  This is why, after careful deliberation, I have decided to only read a very select few (about 5).  These are ones that I don’t find triggering and who cover topics I am genuinely interested in.  I refuse to read any blogs that post all of the food they eat or those that post more than once a day, and if I feel they are starting to negatively influence me I will stop reading them.

Since trimming down the number of blogs I read, I have felt a bit of a void with regards to how I eat; in all honesty I seem to have lost my direction.  When I was attempting to be a healthy living blogger I always knew what my objective was: to eat as healthily as I could.  These days, I really want to eat more intuitively but I find it confusing.  One of the reasons I turned to HLBs in the first place was because I wanted to normalise my eating after being stuck in the restrict/binge cycle for so long but I didn’t want to gain weight doing so.  Trying to eat healthily gave my eating a purpose and because I never truly knew when to eat for myself, I just followed the pattern that most HLBs seemed to stick to – breakfast, snack, lunch, snack, dinner, and possibly another snack/healthy dessert.  I would purposely try and keep all of my meals small to save calories and would eat to a timetable of around every 3 hours, regardless of whether I got hungry sooner.  I can honestly say that I never actually felt satisfied eating this way but I simply didn’t have the confidence to explore what amount of food and eating schedule suited me.  Basically, I was, and still am, scared to eat without a plan.

For the past few months I have been trying to eat much more intuitively but it is really difficult.  There are so many questions I have to constantly ask myself: do I want to eat healthy food?  Do I want to eat unhealthy food?  Am I hungry?  Am I full?  Do I want sweet food or savoury?  Hot or cold?  Spicy or bland?  Am I craving anything?  The list is endless and, quite frankly, it can be exhausting.  It is also very intimidating.  I am constantly haunted by the thought that if I truly give myself permission to eat whatever I like, I will lose all control and never eat well again.  I convince myself I am on a one-track road to weight gain, and this attitude is neither healthy nor helpful.  I just cannot seem to shake the feeling that I am gaining weight (I am not), or am eating in the ‘wrong’ way (whatever that is!).  It is frustrating that the more I try to move towards adopting a healthier, more normalised approach to food, the more frequently the old dieting mentality tries to come back.  I have found myself on each Sunday for the past two weeks saying ‘it’s fine that I didn’t eat healthily this week, I’ll start again on Monday and get back on track with trying to lose weight’.  I have even gone so far as to devise entire food and exercise plans in my mind and set goals about how much weight I can lose by the time I come back to work after the Christmas break.  Believe me when I say that this is not a conversation I want to have with myself. 

I know I have to really get my head around eating normally.  On each occasion that I have told myself to diet on Monday, I have proved to myself that I am not going to give in to these feelings and have never made an attempt to cut calories or change my diet.  I will succeed with intuitive eating and whatever that may bring with it.  I am slowly coming to realise that what I might really need is a major injection of body confidence and I will be working on this in conjunction with intuitive eating.  At the end of the day, weight gain is not the be all and end all of life.  I am not comfortable with making my way through life thinking that I have to eat in a particular way to comply with external pressures to be a certain size, or that I should eat according to some socially acceptable schedule.  For the first time in many years, I want to find out what works for me - what foods I love, what amount of food is satisfying and how often my body likes to eat.  From here on in I give myself permission to eat; food rules no longer exist.

I apologise if this post seems like a regurgitation of many that have come before it and I wish I had something more positive to say but at the moment this is where I am in my journey.  My last post on the topic was probably slightly more optimistic than this one but it is hard not to revert back to previous behaviours.  What I really need to do is figure out why I have started to think I should abandon intuitive eating and why the diet mentality is coming back.  The path ahead is probably long but I know that the sooner I stop trying to get off it, the easier this whole thing will become.  I am committed to eating normally and I am committed to learning to accept my body at the weight it was designed to have.  Life is simply too short to be miserable.

Thursday, 1 December 2011

20 Day Challenge

Today is 1st December which means we are now well and truly into the holiday season.  With just 24 days left until Christmas, the festivities will be starting in full force and the next three weeks will see chocolates and mince pies flowing freely! 


Usually around this time of year, with the dark nights and cold weather, I find that my motivation to workout decreases significantly and I find it hard to get into a nice routine with exercise.  Instead, my workouts are sporadic and I never feel fully committed to them.  I also feel that during the winter I actually need exercise the most to stop me from becoming depressed due to the lack of sunlight……and of course to prevent the mince pies from sticking to my hips too much.  I may not be trying to lose weight but that doesn’t mean I am happy to gain exponentially, so I strive to maintain a happy balance between eating what I like and moving a little to make me feel good.

This year I have come up with a plan to help me stay focussed.  My aim is to exercise for 20 days out of the 24 left before Christmas, meaning that realistically I will be working out for six days each week.  This isn’t a lot but it’s something that I haven’t yet managed to achieve throughout the winter period.  When it’s cold and dark outside, snuggling up on the couch seems so much more inviting.  

This challenge may sound simple – and it is – but it is made slightly more difficult by the fact that I am not a gym member so I don’t automatically have a nice, temperature controlled, safe environment to workout in.  I can either brave the elements outside, or exercise at home, which is why I won’t be making a plan that is too specific with certain activities scheduled for particular days of the week.  There is no point saying I am going to run every Tuesday only to find that on Monday the weather was fine and dry and perfect for running but Tuesday is pouring with rain.  I would rather just commit to exercising a certain number of days per week and then see what I feel like doing on any given day.  Generally I like to have a degree of flexibility and I know myself well enough to say that I will only come to resent a plan that is too rigid.

I have found that my body prefers not to do too much high impact activity, so although I will be making an effort to move for 6 days of the week it will never be in the form of hardcore training like running 10 miles or cycling 30 miles.  That kind of endurance exercise just isn’t for me; I much prefer some gentle yoga, doing an exercise DVD, going for a short run or doing a step workout.  My aim is simply to increase my heart rate and sweat.  It may not seem like a lot but it is certainly enough.

So that is my plan.  Not only will I be counting down the days until Christmas by eating the chocolates in my advent calendar, I will also be doing so with every workout that I complete.

Tuesday, 29 November 2011

Healthy Eating and IBS

This post discusses my recent health issues.  I am not a doctor or dietician and I am not offering any advice, just my own experiences.  If you are suffering from any of these symptoms please seek advice from a professional.

Also note that I discuss my bowel habits so I won’t be offended if you choose not to read it!

Around May of this year I started to suffer with some really unpleasant gastro-intestinal issues.  In truth, I had actually been suffering with very mild versions of these symptoms for at least six months prior to May, but then all of a sudden they started to get much worse.


After an unexplained bout of severe nausea that lasted two days in late May, I never truly felt well.  I was suffering from gas, bloating, constipation, tiredness, constant stomach pain, an inability to sleep properly and dizzy spells.  On paper it doesn’t sound that bad but living with it day to day was horrible.  I was so bloated that I felt as though I looked pregnant and like I had a bowling ball in my stomach.  Every time I ate I suffered really embarrassing obnoxious gas.  I constantly felt as though I needed to defecate but couldn’t.  I had a constant pain in my stomach that was made worse by both eating and being hungry.  I would get dizzy and faint in the afternoon.  I was constantly tired and yet couldn’t sleep through the night.   I felt truly awful.

For the first few weeks I thought I was just unwell and waited for it to pass.  However, when I was still feeling rotten a couple of months later I decided to visit the doctor to make sure there wasn’t anything really wrong with me.  I explained my symptoms and after consideration she decided that I probably had Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS) and was convinced it wasn’t anything serious, which was a big relief.  What she didn’t offer was any help as to how I could start to feel better – just a prescription for mass quantities of Fybogel (a fibre supplement) to ease constipation.

Although the Fybogel did work to move my bowels, it made every other symptom much worse so I decided to do my own research into the condition.  After reading books in my local library and searching the internet I discovered there are certain foods that are recommended for those suffering from IBS-C (the IBS variant with constipation).  As it turns out I was doing it all wrong.

Where I was committed to eating the typical healthy diet – whole grains and lots of fruit and vegetables – the recommended diet for IBS-C sufferers is practically the reverse.  No wonder I felt so bad!  Through my own research I have discovered that I should be eating a low fibre diet which includes the following, to prevent my IBS causing me any problems:

• White bread rather than brown or granary;

• Pasta and rice, but NOT wholemeal;

• Cereals that don’t contain high fibre. Examples include Corn Flakes and rice cereal;

• White flour containing foods;

• Fresh fruit and juices, but avoid skins and seeds;

• Vegetables, but NOT beans, pulses or corn.  The skin should be removed from potatoes and other skinned vegetables as these can be Irritable Bowel Syndrome trigger foods.

Certain foods can also increase the amount of bloating and wind.  Notorious examples of these foods include nuts, dried fruits, baked beans, pulses, cabbage, brussels sprouts, broccoli and cauliflower. Fizzy beers and carbonated drinks such as cola can also make symptoms worse.

When I discovered this information I was a little conflicted.  I have spent a long time building up a healthy diet for myself and I was reluctant to give it up.  It seemed as though I had to reverse my healthy habits and go back to eating white, nutritionally devoid, simple carbohydrates and less fruit and vegetables in order to minimise the amount of fibre in my diet.  This is a complete contradiction of the healthy eating messages pedalled in the media, so for a while I resisted making a change.  I continued to eat healthy whole grains and lots of fruit and vegetables and I continued to feel worse.  After a while though it was all starting to wear me down and I decided to commit to changing my diet.  The experience has been nothing but positive.

Since removing whole grains and cutting back on the amount of vegetables I eat, particularly raw vegetables, I started slowly but surely to feel better.  Each day was a slight improvement on the previous one and now I have got to the point where I pretty much feel normal.  I no longer worry about how I am going to feel after eating, whether I will be able to sleep or how much pain I can expect to feel on any given day.  I feel much more like myself again and I am really enjoying it.

Currently I have cut out all whole grains, nuts and nut butters (sob!), dried fruit, beans and pulses, corn and raw vegetables from my diet.  There is also evidence to suggest that dairy and caffeine aggravate IBS so I have reduced my consumption of these.  I don’t plan to never eat these foods again but rather hope to be able to reintroduce them in quantities that don’t cause me any problems.

So it would appear that healthy eating messages are not always straightforward.  If I continued to follow standard advice about what makes a healthy diet then I would most likely still be suffering.  The simple fact of the matter is that diet is a very individual thing and each person has to make up their own mind about what is right for them.  Some people may thrive eating meat while others relish being vegan; some can eat copious amounts of fruit and vegetables while others have to eat less and some people favour sweet foods while others prefer savoury. 

While I don’t think the healthy eating advice advocated by both the government and health care professionals is wrong in any way, I do think that it is up to each person to make choices that have a positive impact on their body.  For most people, eating whole grains will have such an effect but for me, at this moment in time, it simply doesn’t work.  I am now embracing a new diet that might last a few months or it may last forever but one thing is clear: I will be guided only by what my body wants and I will not eat foods, healthy or otherwise, that make me feel bad.